Walkin' into Fullness

{September 28, 2010}   Waiting on God

I have this little poster on the back of my room door that is titled “Just Wait”, and speaks of the value of waiting on God for answers to prayers, hopes, desires… and even deliverance. I think it’s a lesson that I have to keep learning.

Today Peishan and I read something in a book that I felt was worth sharing. This is to encourage myself, and others who are on that similar arduous journey of being in lack or want but fighting to trust God that His timing and plans are the best.

S.D. Gordon (Quiet Talks on Prayer)

Steadfastness, that is holding on;

Patience, that is holding back;

Expectancy, that is holding the face up;

Obedience, that is holding one’s self in readiness to go or do;

Listening, that is holding quiet and still so as to hear.

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I am waiting Lord... I am waiting. Don't tarry hor...

A little update on what’s been going on since I’ve been back from the US. I’m into the 4th week of being home now. A lot more settled in emotionally, been catching up with lots of different friends, completed and sent out 2 resumes, exploring other part-time options like teaching drums on the side, and trying to commit to weekly gym and dance classes (so far I’ve got regular ballet, and hoping to make jazz and hip hop open classes part of my routine too). It feels a bit haphazard to me, but I’m trying to hold steady in these uncertain times.

Ideally, I would love to teach dance and commit to a particular school or studio, teach drums on the side, and also get certified as a Pilates instructor so I can incorporate the techniques into my dance lessons. It’s funny though… ‘cuz I keep getting this nagging feeling that I’m not good enough, and I should just abandon this crazy freelance job and get a stable job. Yet… a part of me refuses to let up.

Ah well… I may feel like I’m blundering around… but God has a way of making sense and bringing clarity through people He’s bringing my way. Just gotta keep tuning into what He’s saying… and following in faith.


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